Sometimes when all these shit things happen to you..It just makes you question yourself..Why me? Why are people so lucky? Yesterday I went home to visit my mum again. It always make me angry when I go home. Her hoarding disorder is getting serious days by days. It's getting worse when my dad is not home for ages because of Covid. I'm really tired of telling her to clean up the house and throw things! Sometimes I do question myself why am I so unlucky? Why can't I have a normal family? How can my brother and my mother live in such a terrible environment like this? 
I'm really tired of this. I never invite my friends to my house because I always feel like that is not even a house anymore to be honest. It's really embarrasing but I just keep it to myself and never tell anyone. 
When I start to work, people always want to know and curious about my family members. To be honest..it's quite a weird culture and people just want to know about your life and family members. People must have reasons when they don't want to share things with you. So stop. asking. me. about. my. family.
Of all the bad things that had happened to me in the past..How people treated me, laughed at me and thought that I'm a freak...You always know when people give you that judgemental look and think they're better than you. Recently I decided to cut off relationship with this friend as well. She just doesn't want us to be in her life anymore. Lol. Simple as that. Just one button and remove her. I just realise I don't have time to care about any people anymore. I just laugh it off when anything happens to me thesedays. I used to stare at the ceiling for hours overthink about things. Now I just like to keep myself busy by selling things online because the only thing that matters to me recently is money. Maybe this is why I don't really like to interact with people anymore. Lol. All these fake conversations and try to sell me things afterwards. Seriously get a life...if you value our friendship...you will keep in touch with me...yet you don't even know where is my current workplace. Lmao.

Free coffee tasting session. I enjoyed this session the most. We got to talk to the local. She told us about her house, the position of certain room, the function of the room and how they prayed in their house. It was really interesting to me because she looked like a Malay but she was not a Muslim. So I was really curious about her lifestyle.

The aunty was cooking the coffee beans.

So this was the Civet Cat. The guide explained story of kopi luwak to us. This shy cat-like wild creature wanders out of the Sumatran jungle at night onto a coffee plantation and selects only the finest, ripest coffee cherries to eat. However, it can’t digest the stone (the coffee bean) and craps them out, its anal glands imparting an elusive musky smoothness to the resultant roasted coffee. 

Found a nice restaurant as well. We had booked our buffet lunch at Amora Restaurant Mount Batur Kintamani so we didn't dine in here.

We saw a little hut below the restaurant and local.

There you gooooo. All the wood crafted souvenirs. I was so tempted to buy all the souvenirs.

The staff brewed the Luwak Coffee for us.

She let us tried different kinds of coffee for free as well. We could purchase the products after our tasting session. Mangosteen tea was really special!

What a view!

We paid Rp. 60,000 to taste Luwak Coffee. 

I feel like Shopee is getting greedier. Their comission fee is getting higher and I don't really earn much from dropshipping after they deduct the comission fee. Besides that, I face some problem with my dropship partner as well. She always replies message very late. I'm having problem with the airway bill and etc. That's the problem when you don't have your  own products. I will figure out these problems soon. Just have to focus on my online teaching recently. :)  I don't really earn much from Shopee but I just do it like a hobby and earn a little bit of money to shop XD. It's okay. We will figure out some serious things in the future. My apartment is having problem again. The tiles just came up yesterday. The loud cracking noise scared the hell out of me. 

I just talked about my phone storage last week and this week my laptop starts to warn me about its storage as well. I guess I have to upload more photos here as soon as possible. I just find out it is better for me to jot down my thoughts here. Well. It's like talking to myself...because do you think people really care about what you write on Twitter or anything??? Sometimes you just have to express yourself somewhere...A safe place. 

I'm still counting days to meet my dad. I can't wait to see him again! However, this Covid 19 really sucks when you really don't know the 'exact day' that it will end. Checking my country's cases number..I feel like it's even impossible for us to have travel bubble with Singapore. Recently I read lots of news about couple broke up or divorce due to Covid19..It really disheartened me. I will never accept the fact that people used boredom and loneliness as an excuse to break up or separate. 

'What's the meaning of love and life if you just give up easily?'  If they can't overcome this and I don't think they can spend the rest of their life with the same partner. It will be the same monotonous life with the same partnr until they die. If they can't have the lifelong commitment, then don't have the relationship in the first place. It's always the small little things in life that make your day and make you happy for the rest of your life. I guess Covid 19 is really a good test for real relationship. 

Stay strong lovers! If it meant to be, it will be.

Just a little bit life update after a few months in lockdown. Life feels the same everyday. Wake up. Work. Eat. Sleep. Repeat. I have no idea how Malaysian bear with this but we really have lots of patience to deal with this situation. I'm so happy that my friend introduce me Yoga a few months ago before this lockdown. I used to think Yoga is boring and slow paced. Now it really helps to calm down my thoughts especially during this pandemic! I like Yin Yoga the most. It's very relaxing and I tried to do a few poses after learning from my Yoga instructor. I start to love Yoga more and more. I will normally do 15 minutes deep stretch after my workout session. So my thighs don't feel painful the next day anymore when I want to workout again. I discovered Boho Beautiful Yin Yoga on Youtube and it's the best thing ever. I always wear earbuds and follow her Yin Yoga instructions. I always feel like I'm at somewhere else when I play her Yin Yoga videos. Very recommended!

I will probably post more here because I need to post all the photos from my phone. My phone always has no storage which is quite irritating at times. I should get a new phone soon. Hmmm..but I always want a nice tablet. Let's work hard to buy both!

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