从实习开始我每天都大概两点睡，然后五点起身。过后六点半要去学校了。每天都得驾半小时的车真是件不容易的事。起初说要省钱不租外面。现在后悔有点迟了。来回一小时是蛮累的。那段路又暗又没路灯真考验我的驾驶技术。而且有一段路特别黑又很多弯路。一不小心真的会冲下山坡去。真不容易。我真的很怕我打瞌睡。;( 还有47天而已。啊........T.T 有时后课外活动或开会我们会更迟回。回到家，一躺下床就睡着了。起身时已经晚上七点了。哈哈。然后又继续做教案和教具。每天都过着这样的生活，好幸苦啊。

I'm teaching year 3 for my English subject and year 5 for art subject. So, I have 37 kids in my y3 class and I feel so exhausting when I am in the class. Many problems. As usual. Some pupils display inadequacy, some pupils are making noise and some pupils just can't stay at their seat. Such a restless life. When can I start doing my ar n assignment? ? So worry about my grade for this semester :(

A few days ago, one lecturer asked me something about my ar. She told me that she didn't expect sth. And I told her I was surprised too. Thanks for the concern. She is such a good lecturer. Maybe other people don't really care much but she just made me feel worried. At first I do think about that, but I just have to accept the fact. Now I need to make use of the time I have to do it! I will try to do my best. They keep on saying this is a blessing in disguise. I will just accept anything I get. :) Hope everything sails smoothly. I can hardly breathe for these weeks. I just can't wait for this year to end. :( I feel so tired. I just sat for my aptis test a few days ago. I was so blessed that I got the questions that I wanted. Especially the speaking module, I practise daily and the questions did come out! I was so happy. The three questions that I got for my 30 seconds speaking parts were "Tell me about your favourite singer", "Tell me about your first school", and "Tell me the last time you hangout with your friends" The questions sounded easy but when I tried to speak, my mind just went blank. The recording went so fast after I heard the beep sound. I'm not really good in speaking but I already tried my best. My speech was fulled with all the fillers like uhmm, ahh,,,,hmmm...Haiz..I just hope that I can pass the test this time around. I can't afford to sit for it again and again. Somehow it just makes me having self-doubt that I'm not good enough.
I just screw up everything.

Yesterday I just went to my 'see' my school. Fortunately it is not so far. It is a 30 minutes' journey from my house to the school. So I decided not to stay near my school because I can't afford to rent another house. However I still have to rent a car. I definitely have to sacrifice my time to sleep late and wake up early for the following months. I can't wait for CNY to come. It's just first day of the semester and we have tons of works waiting for us to complete.Final year.No pain no gain!

I just started my second practicum last week.I have to tell you that the classroom is like a torture chamber. The kids can't sit still. They are very active compare with my previous school's pupils. However,they are too noisy. 8 weeks in school and now I am counting days to escape from it asap.
Kids nowadays are just plain rude. Set ground rules??? Crap.
Never smile to them.
So demotivating....but I still have weeks to foster good realtionships with them.Just hope that they can give full cooperation for the following observations. THAT'S WHAT I WANT FROM YOU.KIDDO.
Happy practicum to my fellow friends. :)

Hmm...well nobody knows how tired we are. It's very tiring. Hmm. I have a lot to tell but don't know what to tell because there are so many things happened during these weeks. Firstly, it's about the classes that I got. I got year 4 and year 3 students and they were okay la. Just ..hmm.dunno what to say...it's so tiring to teach la when the students refuse to listen to you. Since, it's very difficult to get a lcd projector. We used the traditional method...chalk and talk. We wrote the whole passage on a mahjong paper or manila paper..then decorate a bit to make it look not so dull, be creative or whatever...but in the end your students did not appreciate your efforts...so how will you feel? Well, kids nowadays are different, the you-behave-and-i-will-give-you-sweets tactic doesn't work anymore la..seriously =,=. What Dreikurs theory la...Canter la...bla..bla bla you name it.. but I just think these theory do not work.....So I will just use my own theory. The kids are just plain rude. They feel like they are very good and clever so most of them will not respect the teacher. Oh come on...if you are very good ..diam diam sudah... don't disturb your friend la..they still want to learn....And they will give some kind of stare to you which I don't really like! These kids...speechless.But I don't bother them much. Well...but not all the kids are like that. Some students are very cute and I feel sad for some of them when they refuse to learn and sit there doing nothing. I couldn't do much because my lecturer was there. No time to pay more attention to these weak students because the lesson was going on and my lecturer was observing me. So, I just pat his shoulder and said, "Chong, ok? Do you work ah." Some are very industrious. They always come to see me and read to me. I don't know they come to read for the sake of the best student reward...or something else. but I was touched by these hardworking students. Recess time is the only time they can meet me and read to me. One of the students just finished his breakfast and ran to my room. He was still panting while he read the story "The Greedy Lion" to me. I was so moved by him. Although he did make some mistakes in his pronunciation, I did appreciate his efforts very much. He was very active during my lesson and I was sure he did learn something. Everything was okay. Hmm....are they going to miss me when I'm leave the school? Haha..I just made a joke with my friend yesterday.. I hope my students will not throw eggs to me la on my last day at the school....haha.
Last thing..the thing I dreaded the most when my kids said that the activities are boring. Well. What activity do you want then? Well jigsaw puzzle, gallery walk, think-pair-share- watching video and bla3...seriously what else the kids want from us....All these are cliche for them already. Seriously?
I can't think of any interesting activities to you. All academic things are boring. Tell me. Or I'm the cause of boredom.......like a typical teacher.I know right.Huhu.
So let's see what will happen for the next two weeks.

Huh.It's Wednesday already. Time flies and one week holiday is not enough for me. And I have to do this assignment...why....haiz. Don't seem to enjoy the holiday much even though I am at home. Well. You know it will be my first time to teach. I am anxious because I need to teach the little kids and not my peer anymore. Lots of "what if..." in my mind. 4 weeks...I can do this!💪I saw numerous creative teaching ideas from pinterest. Hope that the kids will like my "creative works". I actually enjoy doing teaching aids.😀  Argh. Okay gotta go....